So, I've been saying a change a week.
It was hard to keep to that today. I made plans to walk at 9 with a friend but she had to change it to 10 45. I had too much time to think about it. She has flaked out on me before and I was REALLY hoping she would again. Darn her, she was ready to go ON TIME!!!!
I was late but I went and walked. 7 laps around the track 3/8 of it running. I'm sweating and tired but glad she pushed me!
I did about 10 credits on Wii Fit. I've lost .2 pounds since Tuesday. Baby steps?
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Feeling a little proud of myself!
I'm a little impressed with myself!
So last week I cut out fast food! And although I would LOVE a Burgerville Seasoned Turkey Burger right now (yes this second!), I have not had one in over 2 weeks!
This week my goal is move everyday! Move with the intention of getting healthy! Monday I re-bonded with my Wii fit board, Tuesday I took a 2.45 mile walk up and down my hellacious hills, and today I took a Yoga class. Yay me!
My legs are like spaghetti, but I am going to keep on moving! I made plans to walk with a friend tomorrow and if she stands me up, I will walk by myself.
I've had a woe is me attitude the last week or so and I really feel like it's improving. So even last night when I was eating some oh so yummy Kettle Chips, I didn't berate myself. Hell, I just walked over 2 miles and seriously my hills are killers! I believe in some parts of our nation these hills would be considered mountains!
I'm feeling good today, I'm proud of myself. I put in the title that I was a little proud of myself. I'm A LOT proud of myself!
The yoga teacher is awesome and I really feel connected already. She made a great point today that I could not be doing what I am doing today had I not done what I've been doing before. So all my previous successes and failures have built me up to this moment and they will continue to build me up in the next moments, days, months.
I was really doubting if I could make it to that run. I'm feeling confident today and if I get down again, I'm going to remember that I'm doing this in little steps! It has taken me 40 years to get this out of shape. If I can move 3 days in row, I can do 3 more!
So last week I cut out fast food! And although I would LOVE a Burgerville Seasoned Turkey Burger right now (yes this second!), I have not had one in over 2 weeks!
This week my goal is move everyday! Move with the intention of getting healthy! Monday I re-bonded with my Wii fit board, Tuesday I took a 2.45 mile walk up and down my hellacious hills, and today I took a Yoga class. Yay me!
My legs are like spaghetti, but I am going to keep on moving! I made plans to walk with a friend tomorrow and if she stands me up, I will walk by myself.
I've had a woe is me attitude the last week or so and I really feel like it's improving. So even last night when I was eating some oh so yummy Kettle Chips, I didn't berate myself. Hell, I just walked over 2 miles and seriously my hills are killers! I believe in some parts of our nation these hills would be considered mountains!
I'm feeling good today, I'm proud of myself. I put in the title that I was a little proud of myself. I'm A LOT proud of myself!
The yoga teacher is awesome and I really feel connected already. She made a great point today that I could not be doing what I am doing today had I not done what I've been doing before. So all my previous successes and failures have built me up to this moment and they will continue to build me up in the next moments, days, months.
I was really doubting if I could make it to that run. I'm feeling confident today and if I get down again, I'm going to remember that I'm doing this in little steps! It has taken me 40 years to get this out of shape. If I can move 3 days in row, I can do 3 more!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Video
So this will be (hopefully) my before photo.
I want to stay pretty anonymous for now-that way I can say whatever I want and won't worry about censoring myself.
My main concern right now is my stomach and butt. I'll weigh myself on the Wii-I can't figure out why our scale isn't working. I went to the Endo in November and my weight was 253. My all time high has been 265.
I want to stay pretty anonymous for now-that way I can say whatever I want and won't worry about censoring myself.
My main concern right now is my stomach and butt. I'll weigh myself on the Wii-I can't figure out why our scale isn't working. I went to the Endo in November and my weight was 253. My all time high has been 265.
Bitchin and complainin
It's cold and rainy outside, I don't want to go for a walk.
I'm tired, I haven't slept in 2 nights.
How many calories are in a Venti Nonfat Chai tea? Crap, I just looked it up! It's 260 calories, that's like 20% of my calories for the day. I've gotta figure out a better option. I'm going to go have some oatmeal, climb back in bed and see if after a little sleep I can get inspired to go on the Wii.
Goal for the weekend, get the eliptical trainer cleaned off.
I'm tired, I haven't slept in 2 nights.
How many calories are in a Venti Nonfat Chai tea? Crap, I just looked it up! It's 260 calories, that's like 20% of my calories for the day. I've gotta figure out a better option. I'm going to go have some oatmeal, climb back in bed and see if after a little sleep I can get inspired to go on the Wii.
Goal for the weekend, get the eliptical trainer cleaned off.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
log
No excercise yesterday, unless running all around town counts. But then I think sitting around watching Oprah's new network negates any of that.
Hopefully, I'll get some time on the Wii tonight.
Read an article about how bad the HCG diet is for you-I knew it! They suggest a 1000 to 1200 a day caloric intake plus additional calcium and Vitamin D.
So I'm starting 7 pm tonight. I've had a whole grain bagel and 1/4 cup hummus for dinner. This is not a diet. Therefore, there is no such thing as cheating. Should I want a couple of the mini Reese's Peanut Butter cups, I will but I will document it.
This is about no longer being Morbidly Obese. This is not about a diet, or the goal to be thin for a certain wedding I'm in (in June)-losing weight for that will just be an added bonus. This is about no longer being Morbidly Obese.
Hopefully, I'll get some time on the Wii tonight.
Read an article about how bad the HCG diet is for you-I knew it! They suggest a 1000 to 1200 a day caloric intake plus additional calcium and Vitamin D.
So I'm starting 7 pm tonight. I've had a whole grain bagel and 1/4 cup hummus for dinner. This is not a diet. Therefore, there is no such thing as cheating. Should I want a couple of the mini Reese's Peanut Butter cups, I will but I will document it.
This is about no longer being Morbidly Obese. This is not about a diet, or the goal to be thin for a certain wedding I'm in (in June)-losing weight for that will just be an added bonus. This is about no longer being Morbidly Obese.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
My log....
Jan 2nd. I will be running in a 5K on April 2nd.
Training....I walked with my husband.
Twice around the middle school track and then walked 1.6 miles. We stopped at the Safeway, did some shopping and got Latte's. I ran 2 times for 30 secs each and ran up a short flight of stairs.
It was frickin' cold, do you burn more calories when it's cold?
Feeling good, planning on registring for a Zumba class on Saturdays and a Wednesday Yoga class.
Training....I walked with my husband.
Twice around the middle school track and then walked 1.6 miles. We stopped at the Safeway, did some shopping and got Latte's. I ran 2 times for 30 secs each and ran up a short flight of stairs.
It was frickin' cold, do you burn more calories when it's cold?
Feeling good, planning on registring for a Zumba class on Saturdays and a Wednesday Yoga class.
How to go from Obese (morbidly) to not!
Every single time I try to lose weight something happens.
13 years ago, I was doing well and then found out I was pregnant with my 2nd child (yay-happy distraction). Then I had 2 kids under 2 and there was no time to give it a try.
7 years ago, I was also doing well and I found out I was pregnant with my 3rd. Apparently exercising makes me fertile!!!
About 5 years ago, I started giving it another great try. After losing 30 lbs, I went to Las Vegas for a bachelorette party, came home the next day and then had to get an appendectomy!
A couple of years ago, we got Wii Fit. I stand on the board and make my profile. What do I get? This sassy little computer voice telling me "that's Obese". Well, F U Wii voice! I still gave it a good go and was walking or working out regularly. One day, I'm sitting on the side of my kid's tub waiting for the littlest to be done playing in the tub and I noticed this rather sizable lump on my neck. After 2 years of feeling exhausted, test after test, and finally changing doctors- I find out that I have this disease called Hashimoto's. They don't think it's cancer but the lump is impeding on my breathing when I lay down. So a few days after my birthday, I have surgery to remove 1/2 of my Thyroid. Since they thought cancer was a remote possibility, I felt hanging on to 1/2 would still allow me to live a normal life and hopefully avoid lifelong meds! I have surgery, I'm feeling OK. My husband resumes his normal travel schedule and I get a call from the surgeon. Apparently, they found a teeny-tiny cancerous tumor in the middle of the thyroid lobe they removed. My endo said "no worries, the likelihood of there being more is very remote. Just in case, she wants me to get an ultrasound of my neck. So I call my husband and tell him the news (I'm doing OK at this point). Then I call my best friend, after I tell her, I'm still stunned. I ask her "Does this mean I 'had' cancer?". She says yes, but I'm OK now she reassures me. OK, I move on.
A few weeks later, not thinking that the ultrasound will be a big deal, I go to my appointment-alone. I ask the tech "will I be seeing the doctor today", she says it's not likely. She's looking around, I've got tons of goo on my neck. She spends A LOT of time on one side of my neck. Then she tells me that she will have the doctor come in. (WTF!!!???-didn't she just say he wouldn't need to come in???!!!) He comes in and asks about my surgeries and biopsy. He also looks on one side of my neck. Jesus, he has such a dry personality. He's all business. While looking at my neck, he explains that I have abnormal lymph nodes. That they will likely need to be removed. Normally someone would get a biopsy of the lymph nodes at this point but since they've already found cancer, more surgery is most likely. A single tear streams done my cheek and onto my neck. He hands me a tissue, cleans off the goo, and tells me that he will call me endo.
A couple of weeks later, I have 55 lymph nodes and the remainder of my thyroid removed. 2 months later after much prep and a very restrictive diet, I have a treatment of Radioactive Iodine (basically they nuke my whole body and any remaining thyroid tissue will take up the Iodine and the Radiation will kill it). I'm in isolation for 10 days in my bedroom. My husband has to knock on the door, deliver my food on a disposable plate. 24 hours into the isolation, I have a rare reaction (Iodine poisoning). I can't be in a car or near another human for a prolonged time, so I just have to tough it out. I feel worse than shit! Slowly, I start to feel better. After 10 days, I finally get to hug my kids. After 2 weeks, my husband can sleep in our bed again. After a month and 1/2, I can be around pregnant women or babies. 6 months later, I'm officially in remission.
1 year and 3 mos later, I'm finally feeling back to myself. My medication seems to be at the correct level. I will become myself again.
My husband has had a vasectomy, I won't get pregnant again. This time I will lose weight.
13 years ago, I was doing well and then found out I was pregnant with my 2nd child (yay-happy distraction). Then I had 2 kids under 2 and there was no time to give it a try.
7 years ago, I was also doing well and I found out I was pregnant with my 3rd. Apparently exercising makes me fertile!!!
About 5 years ago, I started giving it another great try. After losing 30 lbs, I went to Las Vegas for a bachelorette party, came home the next day and then had to get an appendectomy!
A couple of years ago, we got Wii Fit. I stand on the board and make my profile. What do I get? This sassy little computer voice telling me "that's Obese". Well, F U Wii voice! I still gave it a good go and was walking or working out regularly. One day, I'm sitting on the side of my kid's tub waiting for the littlest to be done playing in the tub and I noticed this rather sizable lump on my neck. After 2 years of feeling exhausted, test after test, and finally changing doctors- I find out that I have this disease called Hashimoto's. They don't think it's cancer but the lump is impeding on my breathing when I lay down. So a few days after my birthday, I have surgery to remove 1/2 of my Thyroid. Since they thought cancer was a remote possibility, I felt hanging on to 1/2 would still allow me to live a normal life and hopefully avoid lifelong meds! I have surgery, I'm feeling OK. My husband resumes his normal travel schedule and I get a call from the surgeon. Apparently, they found a teeny-tiny cancerous tumor in the middle of the thyroid lobe they removed. My endo said "no worries, the likelihood of there being more is very remote. Just in case, she wants me to get an ultrasound of my neck. So I call my husband and tell him the news (I'm doing OK at this point). Then I call my best friend, after I tell her, I'm still stunned. I ask her "Does this mean I 'had' cancer?". She says yes, but I'm OK now she reassures me. OK, I move on.
A few weeks later, not thinking that the ultrasound will be a big deal, I go to my appointment-alone. I ask the tech "will I be seeing the doctor today", she says it's not likely. She's looking around, I've got tons of goo on my neck. She spends A LOT of time on one side of my neck. Then she tells me that she will have the doctor come in. (WTF!!!???-didn't she just say he wouldn't need to come in???!!!) He comes in and asks about my surgeries and biopsy. He also looks on one side of my neck. Jesus, he has such a dry personality. He's all business. While looking at my neck, he explains that I have abnormal lymph nodes. That they will likely need to be removed. Normally someone would get a biopsy of the lymph nodes at this point but since they've already found cancer, more surgery is most likely. A single tear streams done my cheek and onto my neck. He hands me a tissue, cleans off the goo, and tells me that he will call me endo.
A couple of weeks later, I have 55 lymph nodes and the remainder of my thyroid removed. 2 months later after much prep and a very restrictive diet, I have a treatment of Radioactive Iodine (basically they nuke my whole body and any remaining thyroid tissue will take up the Iodine and the Radiation will kill it). I'm in isolation for 10 days in my bedroom. My husband has to knock on the door, deliver my food on a disposable plate. 24 hours into the isolation, I have a rare reaction (Iodine poisoning). I can't be in a car or near another human for a prolonged time, so I just have to tough it out. I feel worse than shit! Slowly, I start to feel better. After 10 days, I finally get to hug my kids. After 2 weeks, my husband can sleep in our bed again. After a month and 1/2, I can be around pregnant women or babies. 6 months later, I'm officially in remission.
1 year and 3 mos later, I'm finally feeling back to myself. My medication seems to be at the correct level. I will become myself again.
My husband has had a vasectomy, I won't get pregnant again. This time I will lose weight.
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